The peek inside a confident, seemingly happy and stress-free 24 year old Seattle girl. I want to share with you what I have in my heart and head that I can't share with anyone else. Will you be there to listen to my heart beat and stand beside me?
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Lately I have been feeling completely alone and isolated.
I have no reason to feel this. I work and go to school and live with my MonkeyButt (boyfriend) a roomie and a dog.
I am always surround by people and very rarely have time to myself. I would estimate I have about 5 hours a week were I am ever alone.
At the same time, I feel like I’m just sharing space and air. I don’t feel like I am sharing much more than that.
I don’t know if it’s just because we are constantly together that we have drawn this gaping hole in our lives. I don’t know if since we don’t add new or exciting things into our daily, weekly, or monthly lives it may be making us dull. We have nothing new to share with each other.
We have no issues at all in our relationship. We don’t ever fight. To me though, that is an issue.
We keep all issues in to ourselves and I’m just waiting for the BiG BoOm to happen. MB never opens up to me. It’s rare that I learn anything about his past. It’s REALLY rare if I learn anything about how he feels in the present. I DO know about what he wants in the future. (And a hint, it doesn’t really match up with my wants.)
Is that enough?
Should I leave this alone and continue with our ‘happy’ relationship??
I have brought it up before to MB. I told him it’s crucial to the success of our life together for him to be able to communicate with me and not shut down. It’s so important to me for us to share how we feel with each other. We aren’t mind readers. We need that information. We all do.
What do you think out there in the WWW??
